Not long to go til my birthday now. And that also means 5 weeks on Thursday we go on holiday. got down to 11.3 but weight is fluctuating like mad. Got absolutely pissed and made a prat out of myself so off the sauce for now. I wish I could just have one and leave it at that. Smoking is being cut down too. MUST go ot on bike. Haven't used it once! Almost like I am losing all hope. *head desk* Just being lazy really. No more excuses. Need to graph my weight for the last few weeks too. A horizontal line is about right tbh. ...

Theoretically got down to 11.5 but now on my period etc so we shall see. As long as I don't go over 11.10 I am happy.

7 weeks on Thursday we go to Turkey! Meep! Better get a shift on if I am going to be seen in a bikini!

Woop, weighed in at 11.10 this morning. Pretty chuffed after all the pizza etc of the last week. Drunkenly playing tic in the castle at 2am is not likely to have caused any deficit. Must Work Harder.

So, Aber was fab! Lots of alcohol and crap food but hey ho, it was holiday after all! :-) Back on the horse now.

It did feel amazing to go in new clothes and to feel so fab. Lots of compliments and more importantly, I felt it! :-)

Exercise starts again tomorrow.

Hmmm, so lost the net for a while but nothing to report. Weight has remained pretty steady. This morning I was 11.9 but it goes up and down lots. Went shopping with mum and bought lots of beautiful size 14 clothes. Pretty sure I am suffering from taht thing when you think you look worse than I do ... I hope so else everyone lied and I looked hideous!

Going to Aber on Tuesday ... Not made me goal but still, the last time I was there I was 14.8 so have lost 3 stone since then ... Should think of it like that I guess.

Hopefully there will be fab picture :-)

Have gained a lbs. And the weather is so horrific! Going to do the step for a bit while dinner cooks and then take Gizmo for a walk. This is so not good :-(

On a plus side, I went through "Soon My Pretty" and pretty much emptied it! :-) Threw a load of stuff out that was either too big or, you know, hideous. Gimme to about 11.4 and I should be able to empty "Not Yet You Fat Cow".

Gotta tone up too. It's all very well and good being a size 14 but not so good if I feel so self-conscious about my tops of arms and tummy and thighs. Got weights and a pilates ball so must do something about them.

Weighed myself this morning and I was 11.12. As you can imagine I am pretty chuffed! 1lbs off of 4 stone! :-) Been round the cob and hoping to do some more exercise later. Going to Aberystwyth 3 weeks on Tuesday and I would like to be under 11 stone ... doubtful but oh well! Will try!

went round the cob today and then went shopping with mum. Got a few pairs of size 14 trousers and a couple of skirts. Felt reasonably pretty today. Looking at my graph I am the same weight I was 3 weeks ago. I really have got to step it up. Not cool.

Hmmm, would probably lose more weight if I actually exercised rather than just lay in bed reading fic. Balls. Oh well, live and learn.

Hm, so weighed myself and I am 12.3.6. Pretty much exactly the same as I was on Thursday before I went away. So yay for not gaining loads due to pasta, wine and sausages but booo because I don't want to be stuck here forever! Bored now! Anyway, walk this afternoon.

So, had a lovely weekend away with the girls. Very little exercise and lots of wine. Also pasta and sausages. Generally I wasn't as bad as I would previously have been but still, if it isn't raining tomorrow I need to go for a long walk. Will weigh myself in the morning but I certainly feel pretty chubby. Bleurgh. Goal of 11.9 by June is looking all the more unlikely. A lot of weight to drop in two weeks. Failcakes.

Yesterday there was little excercise and chips. And Magners. Not a proud day.

Today went round the cob with Mum and had lunch. Just gotta be sensible when I get to Dave's. Always hard at his. He makes me feel so beautiful and special that I forget that I need to keep going. Wow, I sound like a bitch.

Food so far -
Peach
Kiwi
Satsuma
Cottage Cheese
Uncle Bens Spicy Mexican Rice
Cherry Tomatos
Sweetcorn
Olives

Heading to work soon to do a 5-10 shift. Only get a 15 mins break which is mostly spent smoking (yeah, yeah, next plan!) so as long as I don't come home and completely stuff my face after work it should be fine.

Just hot-footed round the cob so at least that's some exercise for the day. There was a teeny bit of jogging but I loathe it so much. Must get out on the bike. Oh, and buy some roller blades. Less Malibu Beach and more train wreck but still fun!

New Beginnings

That picture there is me. On New Year's Eve 2010. I weighed (as I found out on the 2nd of January [the 1st was a write-off]) 15stone11. That is 221 lbs.

Today, May 9th, 127 days later I weigh 12stone3. 171lbs. I look like this -

I know it is a completely different shot but at least you can see I have less chins! Anyway, I don't expect anyone to actually read this blog, this is more for me and my obsessiveness. Also, going to Turkey in August so I really want to be down to at least 140lbs by then. It's about 30lbs in 100 days I think.

If I don't record it I will fall into bad habits again and put all the weight back on. And I don't want that to happen. No excuses.